Another Rant

Some people are so full of themselves that they deny all the wrongs they have done to others. They won’t accept all the pain and humiliations they have put others through. They still have the guts to say that it’s them who are the victim while all the time they were the real torturers. I never get how people can be so ignorant of the wrongs they do to people like you keep pushing someone to the fence and when that person starts bleeding and start revolting against you, you start behaving like as if it’s their fault that they didn’t see the fence all this time.

I am furious and upset right now, but I am not someone who yell or abuse or throw things at people. The only way I know is to write and vent out my anger here on my blog, which is one of the few places that belong to me. I don’ know whether all this writing will ever take me anywhere, but how can you be sure that it won’t take you to the places you always wanted to see. Life is tricky and unreliable, we all make shitty decisions, we all go through hell at times, but that’s, not the reason that you should make other person’s life a living hell. And the biggest crime is not accepting all the wrong’s you have done to that person. It’s like you knowingly put the knife in someone’s hand, and when they get cut you say, it’s you who was holding it, while the person was still tied to the rope you were holding.

But then every experience teaches you something, something about yourself. Sometimes it comes in the form of a bolt of lightning hitting your head where you get some realization, and you start seeing a different perspective of the situation. You start realizing that it’s not wrong to keep yourself at first in your priority list. It’s not a crime if you make some tough decisions to make yourself happy. Your happiness is important too, people might disagree on that, but let me assure you I have been someone who always tries to make others happy, but only a few like I count those people on my finger, have worked very hard to make me happy. The soul kind off happy, where if death comes to me at this very moment, I will die happy.

PS: If you are reading this, I am sorry for filling your Saturday with my rant. But I had to get it out of my system, and I hope you understand.

PPS: I hope you are having a beautiful weekend.

Let me rant and rave

So here is the thing guys if you don’t want to hear my whining and ranting, you better skip this post. And if you can afford it, then you can make yourself comfortable on my red couch. Now that you have made yourself comfortable, I will continue with my ranting.

Everything was calm and cool till 24th December. I had a surprise waiting for me at my office desk, two goofy awards 😉 Guess what these people gave me 😀 See for yourself 😉

Isn’t it pretty 😉

I don’t mind them 😀 after all they look beautiful 😉
I am glad I have a high Volume 😉 courtesy my father’s genes and all those teenage years spent as a debater 😀

And yes I like my space and hate it when anyone invades my office space 😉 I hate people who take my things without my permission, I don’t mind sharing but at least ask once. I am someone whose desk and drawers are full of stuff from food items to necessary tools like a cutter or a knife. So people often come up to me for opening their online shopping packages 😛 That’s ok, but what about that guy who broke my mug while searching the cutter on my desk and didn’t even apologized 😦 He walked off as nothing happened. Now you can’t blame me for rolling my eyes and calling him out for his mistake. If you think I am wrong, then you are not my kind of person 😛 , and in real life, we could never be friends 😦

As said 24th Dec daytime was all good, we had a half day at the office, and I was home by 1.30 pm 😛 I slept till late evening 😀 then went out for a run 🙂
But by the time night arrived I realized the slight itching in my throat, and then I watched some mushy stuff, so my messed up body didn’t go down well with my even more messed up mind. I ended up having a severe headache.

Now came 25th December, the Christmas Day, when everyone was busy posting pictures with Christmas tree I was dealing with a running nose, sore throat, and fever 😦 . The worst thing about having the flu is, it doesn’t seem dangerous, people don’t care much when you say you have flu, but in reality, it hurts, I was dragging my body like a dead soul. Now the bigger issue was we had planned deep cleaning at our house that day. Now if you haven’t done that yet, let me tell you it is a lot of work, even if you have hired someone to do it for you. Dragging stuff from one room to another I lost it by the time it was over. The only good thing that happened that day was a cleaned house and a shared cup of tea with my cleaning lady.
At night when I dragged myself to cook dinner, I got a message on WhatsApp from L on G7 wishing us Merry Christmas and where he shared some dialogue from the movie Ghajini, it’s then I decided to the write my Christmas post.

I ended up writing this post by 2 am, which is not a good idea if you are sick and you have to go to the office the next day. With my sleep deprived cold ridden body I reached office and realized half of the people were still on vacation. I must tell you this not a good feeling when you are dragging yourself like a zombie, whole day. Day 2 of cold is much worse than day one its here I start craving for my mommy. Yes, I am a woman, but I can still desire some mommy care. Every time I am sick, I feel like running home and sleeping in my mom’s lap.

I was whining in office, how having flu had sucked the life out of me when one of my colleagues told me that my cold driven voice sounds quite, ahem seductive. I laughed and told him he is not the first guy who has said that to me. My usual voice is high pitched, so when cold captures my body, my voice becomes hoarser, and my style of speaking become more subtle.
By the end of Day 2, I reached home and ordered my husband to make a decoction for both of us, as I was the one who brought medicines from the pharmacy. The poor soul is also suffering from flu 😦 and we still don’t know who brought the virus 😛

While I was reading my novel and sipping the decoction, my friend G called asking about my new year plans, and I told her that I would be spending time with my family this year. I asked her about her migraine which she reported in the morning on G7, and she asked about my weird voice 😛 See same voice sounds strange to girls 😉 I told her about my flu and how D made the decoction for me. She started praising D saying he is the most caring husband she has ever seen and started complaining about her husband, who doesn’t work at all. I had to calm her down and bring this to her notice that D like her husband doesn’t know how to cook 😀 , so he helps me by doing other small stuff 😉

By the time G ended our call, it was time to make dinner. I kept telling D that if I had the broomstick or flu powder, I would have disappeared by now to see mommy dearest. Alas! Life is not that magical, and we are muggles, not wizards 😦

After spending another night coughing and sneezing, I decided to give a call to my dad, this morning. If not physically, I can still be with mom in the virtual world. The funny thing is as soon as Dad picked up the phone, the first thing he said: “You have a cold.” I said “hmmm,” and the next question was “From how many days?”. I knew he would bombard me with questions, so I diverted the topic and asked him about the task that I have assigned him. Now that he has retired, we all give him work 😛 He said: “He hadn’t done it, yet and he will do it, today.” I then asked about Mom, and the next words he said was “She is out to her friend’s party.” I was like whaaaaat?? Why these old women have parties in the daytime 😛 I tell you since my dad has retired, my mom has become a free bird, whenever I call home, half of the time she out somewhere 😀 leaving my poor dad to take care of the house.It feels like as if she has retired from being our mother 😀
But I am happy for her too, and it’s from her I learn that it’s never too late to enjoy your life. And I also know that I will keep getting calls from dad and mom until I recover, that’s how parents are, always worrying about their kids.

The day is almost over for me in office, and I will be leaving for home in an hour, will be on vacation till 2nd January. My family members have just arrived at my sister in laws place, and I would be seeing them soon, so I think maybe family time will cure my flu 😀 . But still, this is not how I wanted to kick off my vacation time 😦

Thats for the day guys, You can go now and enjoy your vacation 😀 This is probably my last post of the year 😀 Catch you all, in 2019.

Just adding this last image which speaks my heart out 😛

That’s me right now 😦